Here we go again

I just got done watching a great movie called Elizabethtown. Now my emotions are all mixed up. I'm convinced I need to just get in the car and go as far as I can go. I feel like I'm having a mid life crisis. What am I doing with my life? I know life cna change in a split second. Never had I imagined life would be like this. I never saw myself living in Sioux Falls doing what I'm doing. I want something more. I want something better. The only thing that tsops me is money. It's just crazy. Money money money. I don't want to go into work tomorrow. No one really wants to work do they? I'm going so that someday I can finally pay off my debts. I'm going to get these credit cards paid off. I feel if I get those paid off then I can finally be free. This feeling that I'm feeling right now is hard to describe. I don't even know what I'm saying. I talked to my mom today. I had to fight back tears when I told her about my day last week when I cried and missed Watertown and wanted to pack up and move home. She asked why? I told her it was just a bad day. She said we all have them and to hang in there because this is a good paying job and will get me ahead. I wish I could go back to school. But once again money. I wish I could travel the world. Money. I don't know what I want out of life. I guess I just want to be happy. I don't know if I feel that way now. I guess it flucuates. One minute I'm fine the next, tears are streaming down my face. I want to live in a home that's close enough to a town for basic necessities but has the feeling of being secluded from the world. THat's the only thing I've ever been certain about my entire life. I crave it more than anything.