I need some tylenol pm's
So here I am. It's 4am. I can't sleep. I am trying to not depend on tylenol pm's for sleep. Well needless to say now I can't. I was just sitting in bed thinking a mile a minute. It all struck me. I am a failure. I'm 21 yrs old. I'm overwieght. I was on a diet which I lost 30 pounds(richard simmons does work) but then for some reason I stopped. I don't have a college degree. I'm working a job I call into a lot. I've never dated anyone my whole life. I've never had my first real kiss. Yes I've had sexual encounters and yes I've kissed people but it was just wasn't a real kiss you know. Well the other night I was watching some toy countdown on Vh1. Damn that channel to hell I just love it. Well it wasn't until tonight that it made me feel like a real failure. There was a toy. A toy that I played with when I was a kid that makes me feel like such a failure today. Yes you guessed it. The Spirograph. I could never draw cool designs. All I got was some fricking spiral that kept going and going and going. Just one big spiral. I could never get the designs that were shown on the box. Will I ever succeed at anything? Well then I flipped through the channels. I was back home visiting my parents and they have cable so woooohooooo. I flipped to TLC it had a show on it called Little people big world or vice versa. Now I don't feel like such a failure. I'm not as selfish. I know that someday I'll succeed. I don't care how far I have to go. I will get a spirograph and I will accomplish all! I will win you, spirograph. Beware world, you are mine!!!
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